Kelly Clarkson - Because Of You

I will not make the same mistakes that you did
I will not let myself
Cause my heart so much misery
I will not break the way you did,
You fell so hard

I ve learned the hard way 
To never let it get that far 

Because of you
I never stray too far from the sidewalk
Because of you
I learned to play on the safe side so I don t get hurt 
Because of you
I find it hard to trust not only me, but everyone around me 
Because of you
I am afraid

I lose my way
And it s not too long before you point it out

I cannot cry

Because you know that s weakness in your eyes
I m forced to fake
A smile, a laugh everyday of my life 
My heart can't possibly break
When it wasn't even whole to start with 

Because of you
因为你
I try my hardest just to forget everything
我尽我最大努力去忘记所有事
Because of you
因为你
I don t know how to let anyone else in
我不知道如何容纳任何人
Because of you
因为你
I m ashamed of my life because it s empty
我为我的生活感到羞耻 因为它是空的
Because of you
因为你
I am afraid
我害怕

又要失恋了吗？心底冷如冰霜，感觉不到痛，只是有那么一丝丝的悲伤。

这首歌却更让我感动——

Because of you  ，I learned to play on the safe side so I don t get hurt 
Because of you  ，I find it hard to trust not only me, but everyone around me 

究竟要到什么时候，什么样的一个男人对我说我会娶你，我才可以真心地把手放在他的手心，trust him ？

我象在十字路口，失落地等待我要的那辆车，行行色色的车辆经过，或曾经在我身边停留，或扬长而去毅不回头，而我的失落。。。。。。不断延续。。。。。。

学会了自我保护，于是我不会再受伤害，我习惯了一个人的冷漠，用僵尸般的笑面对关心我的人。

这些日子，我开始怀念我还有爱的时候，我不禁再听那些让我怀念伤心的歌，喝那带着当时眼泪气息的酒，抽那残留令我作呕的烟。。。。。我迷失自我。。。。。。。

I am afraid ——

我害怕失去爱，害怕拥有爱，如果可以选择，我宁愿回到当初，一切都还未开始，当我还是一张白纸。。。。

而现在，满地的纸片，，，沾满斑驳的污点，，，，我什么都没有，留有一颗空空荡荡的心。

I cannot cry ——

面对着镜子，每天练习着微笑，maybe sunny will came home，maybe。

感谢上帝，镜子中的人没让我看见她的眼泪。

睡梦醒来时，或许会让我重拾悲伤，那些风轻云淡的过往，如烟般消散。

至少，面对镜子，我还可以看到一张年轻的笑脸。

Because of you ——

I m forced to fake
我被迫去伪装
A smile, a laugh everyday of my life
微笑.大笑,在我的生命当中的每一天
My heart can't possibly break
我的心不可能碎
When it wasn't even whole to start with
甚至当它一开始就不是完整的